Guess what else!?! We booked tickets and are leaving for Uganda this Saturday! No, we don't have a child to bring home. Mikeblair and I are going for just a week to meet with the attorney that we have been talking to and to personally take our home study to some baby homes. We have been advised to do this, in hopes that it will speed up the rest of our journey to being a family of 5.
Today I am feeling:
ANXIOUS. Today I have diagnosed myself with stress induced vertigo. I know this isn't real. I just googled it. :) But I also know that i had debilitating vertigo on every Friday in the month of October. For those of you who know me, know that is the busiest time for us. I didn't think that i was stressed or anxious, in fact i thought that i was dealing with the stress of it, better than i had in the 3 Octobers prior. But my body was showing me different. And after October was over, i didn't have another attack of vertigo until... last night after my house emptied of family who had been over to watch the super bowl. It hit me. And today, still here. It's GOTTA be anxiety. There are some things i just know about me.
READY. Despite my head spinning. I am so ready to go! I have my bio babies schedule ready, that is a huge load off of my conscience. We have such a great village that I don't even have to worry about what my current favorite things will be doing, while their Daddy and I are across the world. They are loved so much by so many. This is a huge factor that we took into account in our decision to adopt. There is plenty of love to go around! Secondly, I am preparing my heart as best i can. We are going to see amazing things in Africa, but we are also going to see hard things. I know, after going to Haiti last year, that one cannot be fully prepared to see what we will see. But i also know that our God is going to walk with us and we will not fear.
SO BLESSED. I have a new friend who is taking time out of her own life to walk me through this. For no other reason than because she has travel the path that she saw us wanting to travel, and she knew the obstacles that were ahead for us. People, this is one of the main reasons why God put you on the earth! So that after you have traveled a dangerous and HARD road that you can turn around and make it a little bit easier for the next one. I am forever in your debt, Mandie Cantrell. And I hope that after I have reached the end of the road, I have the energy to turn around and reach out my hand and help someone else. XO ((tears?!, fa real?? I'm a mess))
We have had so many in our village offer to wear our shirt, to support us, and pray with us. We want to that you for the support that we have received so far. Also, if you have been meaning to get one of our snazzy shirts but haven't yet...you better get on it :) You can email me with you order or any questions @ tif.pepper@gmail.com. We will be sending the first order in at the end of this week so they will be ready to wear when we get back from our trip.
Prayer Requests-
- that we can get done the things we need to in this short week
- for traveling mercies
- our hearts to be open to what God will show us in Uganda
- Jaxon and Vivi while we are gone and their blessed caregivers (those 2 can be a lot)
- the directors of the baby homes that we will visit to recognize our sincerity
tif
Still praying....
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